I love this song alot & once again I am hooked on this song again. *Press replay* I keep on replay and replay the song. This song reminds me of everything. I'm sorry I couldn't be perfect for you. I'm sorry I couldn't be everything you wanted to live up to.

I wish that I had never met you. Then there would be no need to impress you. No need to want you. No need for loving you. No need for crying over you. No need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. No need for forgotten promises. No need for rejected hugs. No need crying myself to sleep. No need act like you don't care.  No need, for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing.

But then again, I realize... I'm glad I did meet you. Cause you were the one who always asked me if anything was wrong. You were to one who loved me for me. The one who cared when everyone else didn't. The one who listened. The one who stayed up late just to talk about randomest shit ever.. You were the one who I told  secrets to. The one who taught me new things. The one who laughed at my bad jokes. The one who did things, just for me.

And you, it's too late already. To be beside you always forever will not be me. I always wanted to change the new me, but I failed. I know I didn't get into your heart, life still goes on..

&& yeah! Going get prepared now. Muack!

Though I'm having a holiday, somehow I miss school you know. Hahahaha. Reason's why I fucking hate school and think it's complete waste of my time.
1. I end up forgetting everything I learned that year thus learning completely pointless. That is if I even learn anything to begin with.
2. Homework, fuckyeah.bitch
3. That one annonying kid that doesn't GTFO and give you personal spaces. -.-
4. Some bitchy teacher who are having their period. 24/7 _l_
5. Waking up in the morning for some bullshits, not some, this is fucking bullshit.
Well... 3years of secondary life. Wtf. Must tolerate in school. My outlook of school is utterly bullshit. Thus, is ugly. And times where we needa tie our hair during assembly, when my hair looks like shit, never. Then....
And so when I'm on my bed, thoughts running through my mind. Every day and night. And I've stopped getting mad at you because I realized how much I changed too. You know that feeling you get when you look at someone straight in the eyes and without saying anything you know everything they're saying? You know what feeling you get when you're hugging someone so tight and you feel so safe and you don't ever want to let go? You know that feeling when you're looking up the sky together, both completely silent and as you both turn, your faces coincidentally glances into one another, only to find a smile between both of them? You know that feeling when you love someone else so much, sometimes makes you want to cry out of joy and being scared? I just  need a honest love...

When I said forever, forever is what I meant. Leaving you was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, and still having to be away from you is worse than I could have imagined. But there’s something in the air when we’re together. It sounds insane, but all of the unhappiness, all of the fights and the arguments and all of the pain we’ve felt apart is somehow miraculously mended. I used to picture who I would spend the rest of my life with and you’re above and beyond it.

6weeks had pass, you know how bad it is. 

Hi.readers. Do I look that old? -___- I'm 14, not 18. Stop mistaken me as 16-18, cuz I'm fucking hell not.

Hahahahahahahahaha.  Lately, pool again. I get so interested in pool. Omg. Tammy came to my house. Val cab down to my housedownstairs, headed down to lor ah song to val house, chitchat waited for her to change her stuffs and all. Plaza. 5plus met Sab and all, plaza again. 7plus, Sab and co left, soon Tammy. Pool til quite late. Val friend came to fetch us with his car, hehe. Anyway thanks! :) Stop for awhile for a smoking break, homesweethome. Took many pictures with val, ha ha. Going pub with darlingx next week!! Hehe, see you. :-)

I want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. I want someone who would sing to me at the random moment. Someone who is more goofy than romantic. A boy would slap me when I'm acting dumb. Someone who would throw me his shirt at my face. Someone who would let me and give me win. A guy who make fun of me just to hear me laugh. He'd play my hair and give me that retarded looks on his face. Someone who would share with me his blanket when we're sleeping. We'd take tons of silliest pictures of  each other and hug each other while I was using the computer together in the house. But mostly, someone who would spend hours crying when I was with you and make me smile. He doesn't exist. LOL 

I would get pregnant as many times as possible, then have abortions after the third month of being pregnant, so I would deliver a potato sized 1/3 developed dead  fetus, then I would take the fetus put it in a jar of preservative liquid and put it on a shelf in a secret room in my house, and I would do it until I had so many that the rooms walls were nothing but potato sized aborted fetuses, then I would have a kid and they're bad I would make them sit in the fetus room.

Men with a small dick are weak.

Hi. Wazzup with the hot guys at Jurong? Mmmm. Back to life, I feel like deleting my blog, facebook and msn. EVEN WORST, MY PHONE. I feel like throwing down, I'm changing my phone to Iphone4. OH. Is waste of money, but mom insist me. Hahahahaha. I've never fucked anyone that was so good it was worth dying for. Am I sick? I scare many people, I think that I'm nuts, MAD. Rot at home today. Com=Teebee=Eat=Sleep. WAHAHA. S i a n, I think I should really dance like one party animal, hehe. OKAY! Shall, endmylow life blogging, since nobody reading! Kthxbai

Forget the way he took your number 
Forget the way he asked you for your msn
Forget the way he ask you to be his girlfriend
Remember that he doesn't use this word 'my heart belong to you and only you',


Forget his name, forget his face
Forget his kiss and his warm embrace
Forget the love that once came true
Remember now there's someone new,

Forget the love that you once shared
Forget the face that had once cared
Forget the time you spent together
Remember now he's gone forever,

Forget you cried the whole night through
Forget him when we play our song
Forget how close we two once were
Remember now he's chosen her,

Forget you memorized his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the times he was mad
Remember he's happy instead of sad, 


Forget his teasing, gentle ways 
Forget you saw him everyday
Forget he made your dreams come true
Remember now she loves him too,

Forget the thrill when he walked by
Forget him when he made you cry
Forget the way he spoke your name
Remember now he's not the same,

Forget the way he said he loved you
Forget the way he kissed and hugged you
Forget all those nights when he held you tight
Remember now he holds her tonight, 


Forget that you said you would wait
Forget that he'll leave you never
Forget that time when so fast
Remember now his love is hate.


Forget all those sunny days
Forget all those promises he made
Forget those times through good and bad
Remember he said he'd never make you sad,

Forget the games he played with you
Forget the times he stayed with you
Forget those cold, cold nights
Remember now he keeps her warm tonight,

Forget that forever don't exist
Forget that he just playing you
Forget that memories of 5months to him is a lie
Remember that he already forgotten about the past,


Forget the way he looked at you
Forget you kissed the whole night through
Forget all you dreams came true
REMEMBER, that he doesn't love you. 


Forget the past that I once knew.
Forget it all it too.
Cause he no longer loves you..
...He loves you...


I guess I won't scare you anymore, but loving silently without you knowing..:)

Why was Snow White given a poisoned apple? 

To show us that not everybody is gonna be kind and not everyone is really who they say they are.

Why did Cinderella run away at midnight?

To remind us that everything does have it limitations, even dreams.

Why did Ariel exchange her fins to feet?

To show us that people are willing to give up anything to be with who they love just to be happy.

Why did Aurora sleep for 100years?

To tell us that you might have to wait for quite sometime for your true love to come along. Sometimes it's very long, but worth it.

Why did Princess Jasmine fall for Aladdin?

To let us know that what the heart wants, it wants it no matter what.

Why was Belle in love with Beast?

To remind us that you can't really help what's on the outside, but if the inside is beautiful, then nothing will stand in the way of love. 

After all, inside every confident woman is a fragile princess waiting to be saved.

After 12, tonight. 6month and 1day had just passed.

I missed things used to be. You will wait for my reply in the middle of night. I miss h2h talk with you. I miss the times when we're tgt outside, only the two of us. I miss your negative comments. I miss those things that we've done. I miss your hi in msn, even though after a few seconds I've logged on. I miss your cooking of noodle. I miss your every second of actions. It feel so different not to recieve any good morning or good night message or any calls from you or even sweet messages from you. Even though my phone was spammed for a hundred of messages, there's still no you. I text you, just to hope that you're still sending me text messages. Today, the place we pass by, movie.. you usually would hug me tight and I could hardly breathe. Kissing in the cinema. Everything I think about what I did to you. All I did today, was to think all those memorizes that we had. I looked at you without you knowing? I don't know what to do, I guess you too... I miss you knowing that you're not mine anymore. If we're together still till now, we're having fun late at night, not here thinking bout you. In future, movie and the place we use to went before will not be me, but your future girlfriend that you're awaiting. Just a word bye, means alot to me. Your not part of my daily routine anymore, make me feel so empty. Now, often times we don't even talk anymore. I.miss.you.so.much.I.wish.you.knew.

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest? It isn't love, it's like.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off that person? It isn't love, it's lust.
Are you proud to eager to show them off? It isn't love, it's pride.
Do you want them because you know they are there? It isn't love, it's loyalty.
Are you there because they kissed? Or held your hand? It isn't love, it's low confidence.
Do you stay for  their confessions of love because you don't want to hurt them? It's isn't love, it's pity.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat? It isn't love, it's infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you don't want to hurt them? It isn't love, it's friendship.
Do you tell them everyday that they are the only person you thought of? It isn't love, it's a lie.
Are you willing to give them all your favourite stuff? It isn't love, it's charity.
Does your heart ache and break because they are sad? Then it's love.
Do you cry for their pain, even though they are strong? Then it's love.
Do you stay, because a incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there? Then it's love.
Do their eyes see your true heart and touch your soul so deeply that it hurts? Then it's love.
Do you pardon their faults because it's part of who they are? Then it's love.
Are you attracted to the person, but stay with them faithfully without regrets? Then it's love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death? Think about it twice.

Today after 12am, will be our monthsary. 6month of love. Today, I expressed how I feel to you. I'm unsured bout your thoughts right nao. I still remember everything, yes, everything. Our first kiss, hug, talk, text and the first time you held my hand. Our sweetest, most memorable memory was when we went to www for our 4month anniversary, there's so many memories but I chose this. Why? Because I still remember when you carried me that very moment? You asked me 'How long do you think I will carry you'? I replied 'What do you think'? But, deep in my heart, I thought it will be eternity. Eternity? I didn't believed it at first, you taught me. Yes, I might sound like a pampered girl, I might sound exaggerating, I might sound crazy over you or maybe I might sound like a mad girl, but, it comes from the bottom of my heart. And of cause, because of your betrayal twice, my trust for you lessen. 难道知道你的过去，就不能爱你吗？I realize I miss you more each day. You taught me how to love, how to let go, how to be strong, how to control my temper, how to give in, how to treasure a person, you held my hand and overcome obstacles over and over again, you're the one who willing to hold my hand tightly. Despite my bad reputation outside, you're willing to accept for who I am and although you never blame me once, but I always feel that I'm the one that spoil your reputation and lead you to a person like this. Lastly, you taught me how to maintain a relationship lasting. Although, you took my heart away, but I will always wait for the owner to come back. :) Thank you for everything, even though we ended. I believe it take times. :3 Do you mind if we start over again? When I said start over it means to start as friends again you know, just like how we just knew each other.

I'm not acting drama. I know you're not reading, but well I just wanted to let this feelings out to make me feel better. Those things you said bout me running thru my mind every night. Playing every night and morning. Somehow no matter how much I told myself to stop thinking bout it, I just can't control myself to think back all the memerioes once we had. But now.... On a daily basis we deal with bitches, backstabbers, lies, boyfriends, crushes, ex-es, appearance, insecurity and much more, we have so much to consider. You may not know when or where I checked on you. Seems like you really love her more than me. A NO can actually hurt me. Really. The way you reply her on the phone, really hurt me. I purposely ask her to text you when I''m with her. You said you wanted to last with me, you said you wanted to married me and have kids with me. You promised. Yet you lied. Every of the promise you made. I remember. You know this gonna happen, why would you ask me for patch to hurt me again? Why? Why I trust you? WHY. I'm strong the outside, but to be frank not the outside.Whenever your names appears on my msn, fb, phone and everywhere in my mind, those memories. I really cried like a bitch. I ever wonder if you miss me like I do? I ever wonder is your girl treating you good like I do? I ever wonder do you check my profile for the zillion times like I do? Do you ever click on my screen name and type how you feel and erase it all? Do you ever felt jealous when I was with other guy at plaza? Do you ever think back bout our past while you're lying on your bed? Do you ever tried to provoke me by using other girls to make me jealous like I do? Do you ever love me as much as I do? I ever say I won't look back, but I can't believe that I still want you. Do you ever wanted to know all the answer? Okay, I shall answer you honestly.. everything.. I lied to everyone even myself. I told myself I don't love you anymore, but... it's just a lie. I texted, go out and even get attached by this man is provoking you.  I said I won't look back I was angry by your broken promises. I said I will delete your every single of our picture I was pissed, yet I didn't. I said I ask you to burn away the jacket, because I was mad. Sometimes I would lie down on my bed alone and remember the old times. I laugh at myself with a ridiculous smile. Because of tear, ruin everything. You said those tears and promises I made was a lie, yes a lie, perhaps? The tears was just the eyedrop. You didn't even thought of my feeling, never. 5months is a lie? No matter, it seems  that I'm really the third party for destroying you and your girlfriend, because I know I will never get you back..     Last long :)

Sexmaniac.

Cheating and lying is what he do. Remember, Don't because of one tree give up the whole forest. If my friend can be happy slacking sitting down there, smoking together and talking happily with me, why can't I? :) I'm still young. I've long way to go, to learn. Learned my mistakes and never repeated again

Sex.Maniac

The princess in the fairytale, with was me, and you; the "good guy."
In some odd way I always find boys with a superpower, a special one that you can't see on their appearance.
They have the ability to fool. To make believe and trust in them and then break my heart. After being crushed and hurt so many times I've been careful lately. Like in a fairytale. I take good time and effort to trust people, and I search carefully for the ones that won't destroy me. You always told me that you were so proud to have me - stupid foolish me - and I trusted you. How could I even try to resist? I was waiting for the longest time and then you were there standing infront of me.

Back to blogging life. Short update.
Lately, I'm getting more interested in the outside world, than the inside world. Yep, & Recently been going plaza. Pool? Hahahahaha. Don't know why, I love playing now. I used to dislike playing pool, because I find myself useless. But now, no. Okay, kthxbai.

不愛您 是藉口  好讓您 離開我  請原諒我 愛原來有捨得 我難過 我才懂.

你從來不知道，  有誰在愛著你。你從來不知道，  你真正心底愛著誰。

不知道是不是錯的人, 但我還是不願意放棄這裡面的一點點可能.
29days, for not being with you. It seems like you're stronger than me..

I can't take it any longer.
I'll leave you alone, so have a great life. Say it properly, and look at me for once, look in to my eyes and say it. Do you remember that day, the day when we've met for the first time? I still remember it, those words you've promised. You said you would care and be with me forever and only me. You said, you don't love anybody but me. Don't even bother to say sorry, Don't worry bout me. I want to hold you back, but words won't come out. I know, you've a new girl. I know, you've bored of me. I know, you will forget all about me. I know, I will end up hating you. Although, I know everything. You, it's me who used to care about noone else but you. Why, are you leaving by my side? Why, are you throwing me away? You gonna be like this anyways, so why did you love me? I believed, I believed your lies. Be happy even without me. Oh, did you ever really love me?

I want to... but I'm afraid.

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I'm sorry.

Sometime, I get jealous thinking that someone else could make you happier than I could. I guess it's my insecurities acting up. Because I'm not the prettiest, smartest, or most fun and exciting. But, I do not know that no matter, how hard and long you look, you'll never find somebody else that loves you like I do. Maybe, you will say it's just a lie, ya a lie. Just remember, I'm always here for you, when you need me. xxx 

Long ago with bbg. 

I miss my hair, my piercing and my cutie-ness. 

I wish my heart is a computer: If I have a problem, I click Ctrl+Alt+Del, or Restart it and everything will be okay. I wish my mind is an Internet browser: I can delete my browsing history and clear the dns cache. I wish I can install an Anti-virus in my heart to delete the virus of your love which has infected my psyche, my nervous system and my whole life. Naise, I know. ~~

HougangMall>>Point>>Zech'sCondo>>Hsh.

Me rock your world baby! So hello. Yep2. Basically tomorrow plan goes like this, attend the course, 12plus @ LorAhSoo. Will be seeing the same face again and again during holiday! Wtf, I hope tommorrow if attend, the course will be interesting! Hahahahahaha! Bb!

I'm lack of patient ! ! ! !

I know that you're not going to read what I'm writing now...

Is it easy to forget someone you love even after many weeks have passed since you broke up? Every time I think that I can start a new life without him, I discover that I'm still in love with him. Who is to be blamed? Me or Him? I think we're both to be blamed for the mess I'm in now. To write love on his lies, I'm addicted to this boy, called Melvin. They detest me in your life. Using my entire life to love you, covering every harm against you. I love you, yet I can't have you. Cuz, I can't trust you. You can buy sex with money or get it with force, but you can never force someone to love you or buy someone's love. People who believe that love doesn't exist, they themselves don't exist. They're dead in life, walking zombiessssssss!