Probably a number

Getting attached is easy. But really where does it all start? The calls? The text? The number. That's the first thing, their number. That's a path to texting and calling. Late night messages and calls, specially late nights.. That's when you think clearest the most, the moment where your heart speaks, not your mind. That's when you really begin to get attached. The moment you know you can reach them in an instant... just a few numbers away. So is it really just a number?

We ended up enemies.

My story starts like a million others - girl gets her heart broken at a young age, stops believing in love, meets guy who makes her change and open up. But unlike a million other stories, mine doesn't have a happy ending. 


I was with this guy for 5months, he broke my heart. I have to get over him for 8months, for that fucking 8months. Then he came.. Damn, Zhen Yang, you changed my whole life. Until one day you comes up as a suggestion. A quick look at his profile and he talked me and I ignored him. And so it all started. Long messages being exchanged every single day,  phone calls every night. Telling me that how much I mean so much to you, saying I love you, confessions. Then we're together, hug me when I'm cold, kissing my forehead randomly, hug you to sleep, holding hands, have dinners, watch movies and funny thing is fight over a place to sleep. But. .


After you left I was such a mess, one day passed it's literally killing me, we argue. Yesterday night, I was wondering what when wrong. Was it me? Or you fading? Or maybe you never really did love me. You can't ever imagine how I feel, after I left Habourfront. My heart ache, I'm so lost. There's isn't a days goes by without me thinking about you. The sadness I felt when the first time we broke up.  I will tell you that, although it's just 2months plus together, hey thanks, even if you have broke my heart before, and even if I still have feelings for you, you'll always be a part of me.  

Do you miss the way the world was spinning for us? Yep, that's me.

You make me laugh so much and you awakens every butterfly in me. You whisper sweet words in my ear and I want to hug you all the time and you tell me you want me to. You giggle when I give you a thousand kisses all over your face and I remember you said you will not leave me ever again. I don't think about what's happening or will happen, I'm just enjoying every moment with you, Mr Yeozhenyang. ♥.♥

Fuck guys who can't respect girls.

Hey! I've a sudden feeling of blogging, it's been long since I blog. I mizz blogging somehow........ back to proper update. Yay!! Clap for me lah. :)) Well, i mizz bb so much. >:c 


Ok, I guess I should stop talking much and start blogging. Hi my daily routine lifestyle is eat, sleep and play. Basically, I went to school today and took back my script. :) I'm rly proud of myself, for my math! FOR THE FIRST TIME I REALLY WORK HARD FOR IT. I got 59/100. I'm can work hard more in future. 


My last note.. If you are afraid of showing someone how you feel, don't be.. Honestly, what's the worst that could happen? We are still at the beginning of our lives, there is so much more for us to live for! Life goes on.. Don't let fear hold you back and keep HOPING. Hope got me through the roughest times of my life.. And it will get me through all the others that are bound to come my way.. Don't be a coward, either.. Fear is merely a feeling, cowardice is a choice of action. Be the best you can be, and don't do things you might be ashamed of to live life with no regrets.

always.

He can turn out to be so perfect that you want to scream to the world that he's all you ever wanted, that he's the most wonderful person you've met and when you think you know all about him he tells you something that surprises you, in the greatest way because everything about him is so fascinating and special. And he becomes your lover, boyfriend and your best friend and he's making you so happy that everytime you look at him or touch him, you're thinking that he is the part that's been missing in your two-pieces-puzzle... Oh, how he completes me.:)

fix or ruin.

Hai! While blogging this, waiting for Liwen to come my house and guard me with maths and english!! Argh, mother fuck i.hate.algebra. Did not blog for days due to my computer.. and busy weekend for me, busy studying well.... I went home revise a little bit of maths and memorize some of english chim phrase sentenses. First paper down, six more to go. What's next? Party! !  Nono, shall not look forward for this... After exam, busy working..hmmm.....  and oh i love my baby! hehehe. kthxbai...... :D