My world came crashing in on me. Looking back, I realize I've done a big mistakes. Evil has caught up with me. Karma. So the rl ques was 'why me?' but 'why not me?' you reap what you sow.

THANKS ALOT

If  I could get the chance to make someone happy and prevent fights, by making them feel... like a worth something. We argue..... i'm tired of argueing with you. Maybe i should stop bothering you, i know m annoying. I'm sorry. Everyday I tell myself that your not longer a big part of me. Sometimes I really believe it, sometimes I actually think that you don't mean a god damn thing to me. Every time that thought appears I feel relieved, I feel less vulnerable, it feels like you can't affect me anymore.I've repeated this thought so many times that I've almost made it true. At the same time it makes me so freaking scared of moving forward, cause what happens when you stop loving someone? What happens when you someday wake up and realize that this person actually doesn't mean anything to you? How can you manage to go from 1000 to 0. Cause that day will eventually come. The only thing you have left is the beautiful memories that you hopefully will carry with you your whole life. But I'm so afraid of that day coming, because I don't want it maybe i should stop contacting you. 

the best promise you could ever break.

This is to those crazy jealous girlfriends. I have to admit I am one of you. I never wanted to be, never thought I would be, but then I fell in love for the first time and found out what is like to see the love of your life with his ex. You're my whole life you're my whole world. I'm so sorry I turn in to a selfish bitch from time to time, my job in this relationship is to work on that, and I can tell you that I'm going to. And to all those other crazy girlfriends like me this is a warning, don't let it get to the point of no return, change, it's that simple. I know how you feel and I understand when jealousy gets the best of you but I'm sure your boyfriend loves you "just as much as mine loves me" (which is a shit ton)'so.not.true'. And if we are just crazy and freakin' out all the time how are we showing them that we love them back, so work on it, all of you. That’s my advice for the day, basically to sum it all up crazy bitches need to stop being crazy bitches.

You’re perfect because everything you do makes me smile. Because every second spent with you is worthwhile. Because when you laugh at me, I laugh too. Because everyone else can see I’m devoted to you. Because I love your eyes and the way they shine. Because you don’t tell lies and you’re so cute when you whine. Because when you get mad, you can’t hide it. Because even when you’re sad, I can find it. Because the way you hold me sends shivers down my spine. Because I never stop thinking about you. It’s not fair because you’re so perfect and no one else can compare.

hey.

It's getting so hard to be around you. Because every time I see you, I see a stranger. You've changed, and I just miss the person you used to be. The one that cared, the one that wouldn’t ever hurt me, not if they could help it. But now, now all you care about is yourself. Maybe you never did care in the first place, I'm not sure. All I know is the person I loved so much is no longer there. Nothing is left of you. Everything's changed, and I miss the person you used to be.

i dont even know whats going on.

I guess this is what it feels to move on. It's hard for me to write my feeling down and explain how much I really miss you. I know your not reading but.... looking at your profile, seeing you talking to girls it's killing me. I always thought that move on, it meant that one day you woke up, suddenly didn't have the same feelings anymore, but i was wrong, totally wrong. Everytime I said, all those mean words, trying to provoke you deep down in my heart I still care. I see now, I still love you. I'm learning how to stop my missing and loving not to interfere with my life. I guess I need to learn how to be alone again. I.... wish you goodluck in your new girl. Takecare.

I think tonight I love you.

Look  me in the eyes, even though we're over... 

It  doesn't  matter that I haven't knowing you forever, what matters is that you had me smiling since day 1. Sorry for the lack of updates I’ve been so horribly busy and tired this week rot at home eat sleep online.... like almost.. everyday.. everytime... Plus I’m on the verge of  falling sick again (and just when my month-long holidays are coming! damn it)  fuck  you. I think one of my biggest flaws is not knowing when or how to give  up. I  find myself looking back and remembering all the good times of the past. Sometimes in life all you  need is someone to wrap you around your arm. I think I should post often!