Rumours are nothing but lies, Records are nothing but past

I have an awesome friends around me.

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Happy birthday Rebecca!

Though, it was simple. Tears of joy ran down my stiffen cheeks, touched yet upset. Who needs boys when I've got awesome friends? 

I really don't know what to do. People tell me loving someone is the greatest thing in life, but I know how you feel when you get hurt, and I know running is easy and it spares your feelings, and... And I'm babbeling. Forever is an awfully long time to wait, and time I've learned. Too much it's kills you, grow old that we wait will never happen. dwell on the past about people, and things are off without.

If only mistakes we’re that easy to undo.

Lazy to upload picture xx. Mom buying me a Dslr! COOL OR WHAT HEHE

Hi guys, yesterday was an awesome day for me. I'm back from plaza, town/cine and punggol! Woke up at 10plus, called Natalie. Prepare everything, I'm always late. Natalie came to my house, then meet Jeremie. Then headed down to Ion, then walked to Cine, can you even imagine  the journey it's so fucking far what's more I'm wearing high heels, dang.. Reached already, walked around. Meet Siyi darling, woah it's been long since I met her!!!  Decided to watch movie, the "Sucker punch" the show was like damn no link la, the sound effect freak me out, I was damn shock by the sounds effect. Hahahah. The whole show, was damn touching. Fuck why on earth they exist such an evil person? Yo sucks man. Cine was so pack yesterday. Saw quite numbers of familiar faces.  The movie ended at 8plus. Went down to Outside old town white coffee to smoke. Headed down to Punggol with them. At 10, send Natalie home. Cab home with Siyi and Jeremie. Home sweet home at 11plus. Hehe. What a day!


That should be me..

Learn to appreciate things around you.

Took this from last year, if I wasn't wrong, before June Holiday, ohhh memorizes. ~

I remembered this picture I took this in the salon with Reena. Just came back from school excursion at E18hteen Chefs, named Benny. At Fusionoplis. He's a drug addiction in his horrible past. In addiction, he has been in and out during his teenage years, which means he's a having difficulties changing himself. His teenage year turns out to be a Fifteen year's nightmare.  A new leaf, a new beginning, so he decided to lead a normal life. He even teached us how to bake brownie and he showed us the steps and ingredients, we even ate his food. Hahaha. And then homed around 6. :)

At the age of  9, your dad buys you ice-cream, you blame him for dripping all around your lap. At the age of 10, he paid for your tution-fee you thanked him for not bothering it. At  the age  of  11, you went to a birthday party, you blame him for not fetching you home. At the age of 12, you failed your PSLE, you blame him for not giving you tution. At the of 13, when he gave you tution, you blame him for being naggy. At the age of 14, he came back from work,  looking for a hug, you thanked him by having  your bedroom locked. And then at the of 15, you went to lockup, you blame him for bailing you out  late. So... what's the world would be like in 10years later? Learn to treasure things, never take things for granted. Cause you'll never know, until it's gone. I love them even though I did many stupid stuffs in the past...   

I'm not sure if I'm happy or completely lost right now. Definitely a little lost, but aren't we all? I have no idea what I'm doing in my life, or where I'm going. And I think I'm okay with that right now? For the first time in a while, I noticed that I've changed. Maybe for the best, or maybe not? But does it rlly matter? When we change, we can never go back.

And then, after some days living in the past, she returns to her future.

Is he like this with every girl he knows? Does he do these special things for me for every other girl? Does he tell all the girls he talks to the same thing he tells me? Is he talking to other girls on the side, or am I the girl on the side? Am I the only girl he’s talking to? Does he talk about me to his friends? Will things change after we do things? Woah. Welcome to my mind. :) 


Hey, I came along to watched this show, Notebook yesterday. Five times. Over and over and over again. I watched it all night, trying to figure my own life out. I felt like every word Noah said to young Allie (who was engaged to someone else), was directly spoken to me I tried to picture my life from now, 2o, 30, 40 years from now. What's it look like?  


So, hi I'm Rebecca. I maybe didn't choose the right one. I didn't follow my heart. I go for the easy way, because there is no easy way. The only thing more impossible than staying, is leaving. I don't have the courage to destroy anything. To destroy it all. To figure it out. I just can't. So here's the deal. If you want something, go for it. Life really is too short to wait. Me? I waited too long, and now it's too late.

You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.

Ever felt like the world was crashing down on you? Hey there, I'm. with. you. Follow me and take my hand, cause you're not all alone here. Look, "I'm with you", I am. I'll walk this path with you being lonely. Being lonely is just being independent by yourself. Many times in my life, I stretched myself too think, never knew how to say no. In my mind, if I did all I could. As you can imagine I was greatly disappointed. My motives misguided and lost. I should have given without looking for anything in return, I was investing care in others looking fora return in love, but the the return didn't always find it's way back to me. And as expected,  I went down in flames. Oh boy, you're giving me a hard time 

I'm with you.

I'm rlly pretty lazy to upload pictures. Well.. because blogger is such a bitch, it's doesn't allow me to upload more than 5pictures. For every 5pictures you have to wait like 10mins? Wanna see photos? Check it out at facebook dude. I'll still blog though, not always, at least once a week or maybe twice? Fuck that, there's so many things running thru my mind now. I need a time machine, if time could return back as before, I will choose my childhood, with no problems in my mind. I will change myself. You know what hurts the most? When your ex shouted at you, when you did nothing, nothing wrong at all. I blame him. I blame his ex-girlfriend. I blame his upbringing. I blame so much, and I had resolved this year to eliminate blame from my life. I'm a heartbreaker, heartbreak, a rll bad heartbreaker. I didn't know that things turn out this way, definitely I don't know why. That feeling is killing me. Dang it, that's where the part I'm stuck at it. Rebecca suck it up, face it. Settle issues by yourself, independently. I'm lost, so badly. 

Rock on! Scissors, paper, stone. And you sucks my sock.

OK WHY AM I SO RANDOM HAHAHAHAH