I hope that I didn't made the wrong choice

It's true, when only you realize how much someone meant to you and you regretting later? It's monday today, dismissed go home straight, onlined and eat. It's been a long time since I blog. It's hard finding a true friend, yes I have 3thousand of friends from facebook, but half of them are fake. Friend never betrayed each other. I think I should rant it out here, because there's so many thing that came crashing me down. And so you might not know, it's been a year since I've turned into a goody two shoes. I kinda mizz nightlife. :( I look horrible with my makeup on.... Update tumblr, www.rebeccakoh.tumblr.com HEHEHE. Okay, shall end here.

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if you ever come back

Yzy, I'm glad to have you here.
Happy birthday to you silly. :)


On the morning I woke up, looked for my phone. Brush up, ate breakfast. Everyday when I'm young, I have pet dog, named doggie. He would usually woke me up with his cute lil fur around me. I kinda mizz him. :(( The only creature on earth who loves me more than himself. Whenever I saw a dog look like exactly him, it will reminds me of him. His cute eyes soft fur mesmerize me. And then I left him.. I think I wasn't good enough for him, so I found him a good owner. So yep, hi. Saturday night. I went to meet Joleen at Compass. Lack of money, lack of freedom and even lack of penis. Darryl and all came afterwards, took train to Dhoby, then somerset reached the destination went to Cineleisure, bought Darryl stuffs, Scape. Ate Kfc. Saw quite number of familiar faces. Me, Joleen and co catch a late night movie, Scream4. OK, it's Nc16. Violent show, there's this part where by, you will be shock by their sound effect, what's more we are sitting infront from the movie screen like two place away from us. Walked again.. And then homesweethome. :)


This song is awesome. 

pictures and thoughts

Today, I woke up. I feel empty inside. This isn't the first time has happened recently, in fact few weeks ago. I'm trying to pintpoint what is making me feel this way, and then blaming stress, exams and school, then blaming everything that wasn't truth. However the fact is, I'm feeling empty because the person I love is miles away. Well, hi guys. What a tiring day...... During the 19&20 my school is bringing me and my classmate to the Simei ITE hahahaha. 

I was so happy that it seemed like nothing could bring me down, but a fear that I knew all too well was creeping up on me, as it had done with all of my past relationships. I was now so afraid of what life would be like without you that I convinced myself that everything would be easier if I ended our relationship before I began to rely on you too much. I pushed you away. I let you go. 

So, I'm stuck.

how memories change.

Isn't it funny to see how the memory works? It's like a paper, or chewing gum, that you can shape from one thing to another. So yeap, sup. It's been long since I update my blog. Sometimes in life all you  need is someone to wrap their arms around you, and assure you that everything is going to be just fine. Because when you have him with you, you will never be alone. Have you ever miss that special someone so deeply? Hey and of course, I'm with you. Even in silence you can understand each other, and even a one minute hug can change your whole entire mood.


Who wouldn't like sweet guy. I really miss those times, when he cares and would do anything for me just to make me happy. Every simple occasion will become big one because of his sweetness. Other girls will jealous cause I have the guy who loves me and treats me like princess. In your life, you don't need a perfect guy. All you need is a guy who loves you so much and willing to give his world just to make you happy.  

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hi, ask me.

I acted like it wasn't a big deal, when really it was breaking my heart.

Everybody made mistakes, don't they?

Hi!! I only uploaded some, because Picasa is being a bitch, for not allowing me to upload pictures at one go. Dang.... Take a look in facebook photo album instead! ! ! What a boring sunday..... School tomorrow, monday blues~ Went to Punggol with Jeremie to take my Itouch. We crap loads of nonsense inside the bus, down the bus and everywhere lah. Hahah. And then homed. Basicaly yesterday went out with my threesome awesome friends! What a messy day with full of HSA, nb I swear I won't fucking hell go bugis anymore again, fucking hell................. z.z

It's just me growing up...

I  realize that I've grown fatter and shorter. You know what? 4years back or maybe 3years ago, I used to have curly hair, do not know how to put on make up, I miss my childhood, who doesn't? :)  Wassup woke up at around 10, texted Siyi, bathe and prepare everything, Siyi came to my houe, left my house headed down to Mall. We went to MacDonald inside for aircon!!!!!!! I swear the weather is fucking burning me, I'm going to get blacker and blacker again hahaha, while waiting for Jeremie we took pictures with her. Woah, I'm like damn retarded la. :( Jeremie came, bought his frolicks, headed down to Town. Trained, reached 313 walked to Cine, then scape to buy Jeremie stuffs. Well..... then ate our lunch at foodcourt. Then trained to Bugis meet Jeremie friend, sucha unlucky day hsa came, walked to Arab street for Shesha, damn lucky I hide my fucking cigg on my pants, hahahaha. What a day, then hougang. Smoke, karkang mall, homesweethome.