I'm having fever, i didn't eat medicine and i didn't eat my lunch and dinner. I'm still waiting for your text to text me. I'm still here telling you how i feel now. One word to decrible it 'failure' to be a good girlfriend, or i spoiled you too much. Baby tell me how? Every quarrell we had or something bad about you, you told me, you will always say i don't deserve your love, running from the facts doesn't slove our problems. I ask you why you took it, you got mad and raised your voice and said that was the past. I didn't quarrell with you, in fact i told you how i feel. What am i suppose to do now? Am i that lousy that you have to do this to me? I try my best to teach you the right things. I try my best to talk things right with you to tell your mum everything, i know you say you won't blame me when i betrayed you, inside your heart i think your mad at me. I wouldn't wanna betray you, but you make things difficult, your action don't deserve it. At first i wouldn't wanna tell your mum, until just now in the morning she called me and suspect you, i told her everything. You know just now when you told your mum you took it for quite a long time, you know how i feel? I wanted to slap you, i don't bear too. Why you have to lie? Why? Can't you just tell me that you actually took it now? Can you? Please. When i betrayed you, you hit me, i didn't even shout at you or angry you. I merely only say chaocheebye. You can hate me all you want, you can blame me all you want, you can make me hate you even more. I won't give up so easily. I always tell you i believe actions more than words. I will always side you, but this thing i can't be bothered to side you. TELL ME MELVIN, what i do to deserve this shit again? How many times you wanna lie to me? I try my best not to quarrell with you, talk things nicely. I try not to cry infront of you, but i still did when i'm at home. You made me disappointed, so upset yet so pissed. Tell me why? Took that, really that fun? Rather have fun than spending time with me? Being with me, isn't what you want? Whose the one that ask me for patch and will cherish me properly? Whose the one that OWNSELF tell me that you will change to the better? Whose the one who say, i won't lie to you anymore? Why didnt you appreciate me? You don't scare that one day, you will lose me again? You don't scare one day, i will don't care you or this relationship anymore? You don't scare one day, i won't control you anymore? Will you? You don't learn your lesson? Or you have not learnt at all? Tell me, i really need discuss with you about this. Your cousin also told you that doing this, will only regret.  Do you wanna see me suffer without you? You know the feeling? I change whole lots because of you, i think you notice too, but what shit you done? WHAT? Tell me what fucking shit you did to me? Don't take me for granted, i gave you chances doesn't mean i don't trust you. You said you did those thing because you want me to trust you, i gave you my 100 percent trust, but what you take me as? Everytime, i forgive you for doing bad things. Past what you did to me, i didn't took out and say. But why you? But why this? Don't you love me? Don't you know how i and your parents feel? Okay, maybe i isn't a good girl, but i didn't touch those things or do whatever shit you did anymore. Being with you, is my greatest thing, i can give up eveything. You said i changed, i changed back to my old rebecca already, but what about you? New melvin? Where's the fucking old melvin gone too? I don't know why, when you told me that you took that thing behind me, you know how i feel? I wanted to cry, end up i try my control my tears. Melvintan, neither do i do you wrong or betray with other guys behind you now, you can have me and your parents to change you, but you have to change yourself too. If you really love me, show me the change in you. Sometimes i feel like giving up on you, but end up i didn't, i love you that's why i'm teaching you here. I won't give up on you so easily really, shall wait and see.