Don't take me as substitution

It seems everything was my fault, i didn't say anything.
I already said is ex contact me, you yourself don't believe me.
I'm scare that i can't take it. I'm scare that i'll lose you one day.
And yes this thing really happen. You didn't give me time to explain.
I'm crying once again, for nothing. Go ask those who are better to be love. I'm suck at it.
Failed in a relationship, failed in everything. And i'm not a great real girlfriend, i am not.
I've become failure, TOTALLY FAILURE.
I dislike living in my own imaginary world thinking that you loved me more than i do.
But i was wrong, i believe that i've deserved more than enough of those hurt and neglecting.
Let's not play this history in repeats, gently let me go if you don't love me enough.