My mind is stronger than my heart.

3hour more and i'm so excited. When it past to 12am, it's our 4thmonth anniversary.
Our Anniversary. May 18th.
I'm glad we made it thru, how long can this last? We've been up and down together as one. To keep it, to fight fr it and and work it! I love memerioes. OH, MEMERIOES. :-)  I love how shy when you asked jeremy to take my number. I stared at you and walk away think you're crazy.I remember i was wearing black and white. Until night, you text me with another number (9499), and i didn't reply you, so jeremy gave you my another number. I think you're noisy. I think you're annonying. You asked me for msn, i ignore your message. I still remember i dua you when i said i wanna meet you at plaza. I still remember the first time when you called me when i was being dismiss in school. I said i got caught from stealing. I still remember my reply to you was effing dao. You text me when i was in school, you asked me to be your girlfriend, i said i don't know la. Few days later, i accepted you. Our first outing together, amk. I was wearing white sleeveless and hotpants. Amk pool, siyi meeting her friends there then we saw wan. Taking bus 74 back home, in the bus i was so fucking shy until i don't dare face you, hplaza being random of me, i said those sentence and i saw your shy face make me laugh. We text and call each other everyday. Remember our first month, i was in china. I was back from singapre you help me post my blog and make it alife. And i'm proud of you. :) HAHA. We came down  to plaza everyday, realise that i'm so sucky at pool, when you're playing i always shout like a mad women infront of you. Our second month, we went to town and we got caught from hsa, we watched movie and i shouted " doctor moon ", two days later we broke up because of your hongster-ness. I was so piss off by you, our last meet that saw each other was at hougang mall kfc outside. When i reached home, you sent me "let's break" i cry infront of my mother didn't attend school next day. After we broke up, you're with her again. We done alot of stupid things. And i did a veryveryvery stupid things behind you, when i saw you when you actually took picture with her, i was in a very big blow, i started to do bad things. I changed alot when i'm not with you. I saw your msn, facebook and blog i cried. I cried every night and curse you to die everyday. One week later, you contact me i keep on scolding you. And yeah, i browse thru to our old conversation that one month ago when we are not together, your first message that you text me 'my love for you will never changed abit' and i was touched. I thought you was lying and replace me as replacement, but i was wrong.  I saw you when i was having a run at Punggol park, you're with your friend. I have a phobia of meeting you, wanted to go toilet everyday and i did overcome it. I remember my friend took cig from you, i got caught by my school teacher. And you text me 'what the fuck you doing' i replied you sorry. And we slacked at Punggol park nearby, with my friends. I'm afraid of talking to you. And we had a eyecontact with each other. And you left because of your meeting with your friends, and i sent you a song lyrics 'just the way you are'. Few days later, we meet again, i told you that i'm not meeting you, but i said i was just joking. We meet at point mac with zech and co. And i promise you that we will tonned whole week. We waited  kirby at hougang ave 8 mac, and i talked to you when you already wanted to talk me. You asked me whether i still playing shirt or pg. I said yes, with that stupid smile and i said i will change to the better. We really tonned, for the first time at Punggol with kirby and co. I was looking at you, when you looked back i was looking at somewhere else, suddenly i hug you at a playground. I still rememeber that it was after the rain full of insects i was wearing blue dress. We talked to each other, laughed at each other and hug at each other when we are not even sleepy or bored. You sent me home and i drop to sleep already. Til then, you waited me for two weeks and we patch. I'm obsessed with you, i think about you constantly.  I loved you and i can't believe you're really mine. I love the way you make me feel amazing about myself. You have such a cute butt. I love that you make me laugh every day, and often so hard i cry. I love when we fall asleep holding hands. I adore the way you eat your food. I love the way we share the meal. You are my favorite person. I even love that we can argue and fight, and then how we can make up...usually very quickly. I love how you wouldn't complain when i slept half way thru when i was texting you. You are the only one I ever wanted to be with.You are my perfect other half, you make me the happiest i've ever been. I want to take care of each other forever. Love is too weak a word for what i feel. I'm afraid, really do that i will lose you just like that. Because of my attitude, sensitive-ness, jealously and trust. I'm sorry, if i've controlled you alot. How can i prove you that, you're really important to me and i really need you so much? Yess, i admit that i'm a lousy and hopeless girlfriend, but i will keep tryin to be perfect. Happy 4th month honeybbytan!!! ♥♥♥